One day I wrote the words of an experience I had never shared with any other person because the experience had frightened me into a silence. I had no intention of sharing the story with anyone, and even though it brought about a kind of vulnerability, writing it out felt like the thing to do. After writing it, burning it felt like the thing to do. So I went to the roof and burned each page, watching as the words dissolved back into nothingness. 


That process seemed to spark the next steps in a life-long journey of personal healing and growth. Eventually I came to realize that life comes with many hard edges and recognizing the bruises that sometimes incur only deepens our experience here and ultimately brings us closer to peace. 


Years later, I rediscovered this freedom of writing things that would never be read by anyone. So often I feel lost for words, with the world moving on around me while I stand with my jaw hanging open. Here though, buried in my work, I can speak freely of all the bruises, of things that have happened that were out of my control, and of things that have caused me great regret, of things I wouldn't take back for the world, things I hope for, things I'm afraid of, and of things I'm sorry about.


Within the sanctuary of my own internal dialogue, nothing is taboo. Anything can be said. Thoughts may be left unfinished, words torn in half, memories overlapping..until they become mere threads, woven into the fabric of a brand new story, a story that is forever unfolding.